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2012-02-12T07:58:00.000-08:00

everything ...is so fucked up
i fucked up my own life myself :'( , it's a fucked up mistake .
why do things all turn out to be like this ?
I hate myself for being so useless
at CCA , I'm useless too
I think I don't even deserve my SGT rank , sigh
a few more months in SJAB ... I will miss it sigh
I'm already missing sjab life in year 1 and year 2 alot ... miss those days training for FAC ...
was fun ... SJNZD lol
And ...
I really hate this ...
fucked up all my tests so far ... English , Physics , etc , fucking them up doesn't mean I didn't study ... sigh
and ... have been emoing and this sucks
I keep thinking that you hate me
it hurts
I just wanna know what have I done :(
sigh ...
and ... I am the extra one :( always ...
rotting at home and emoing :( cause nobody to spend time with
hate myself :'/

I realise time is seriously passing too fast ...
I don't want time to pass so fast
though 2012 doesn't seem like a good year for me up till now
sigh

so much to say
don't know how to say
no one to talk to

I guess I got over you . over you most of the time .

k bye

first post of february

:(

Useless

2012-01-29T07:25:00.000-08:00

this may be my last post in january ...
well Friday , 27th January .
all the lessons . almost fell asleep . haiz boring like fuck
stress like fuck
:(
CCA . promotion parade ...
congratulations to those promoted :D
well ...that day there was TOC demo for juniors as well . Then something happened .
Then last parade . Yes I care .

What happened on Friday sent me thinking again . after 2 years
I am still a useless senior :(
trying not to be useless but I am still useless
I can't do anything right . I feel so fucking useless .
I'm always a failure .
I hate myself for being like this .

:(

Today went KOI with Qian Huai and Pamela after a very long time ...
well ... after that me and QH went to Bukit Batok ...
eat Mac ... I order corn cup again ...
fattening lol ...
then after that look at some phones ...
and went home ...

and there's school tomorrow
and I can't sleep early ...
I don't look forward to the next few weeks :(
haiz , why can't life be simpler ...

:(

IMY :(

Nostalgia

2012-01-26T03:50:00.000-08:00

Shall blog
emo like shit then also some great things happened ...
20th January ...
School Anniversary cum CNY celebrations in school ...
Doing public duty again :D
haha the celebrations boring uh
but ended at 10 am
then went eat and talk talk ... guess who joined me and Kenneth ? Yousheng ! haha long time no see ^^
then after that wanted to waste time then everyone not free so I went home LOL\
haiz
but went out again to dinner with SAPS ppl :D
miss them alot haha
we met at mac ...
then we went mos burger eat ! take away and eat outside the mall at the corridor there ...
then chitchat ...
a while ...
hahahaha then we went RX condo there lepak
sit there and chillax and talk ! haha that night was a chilly night ... chilling on a chilly night LOL
haha talked about everything haha and some primary school memories ...
i wasn't there in any of the things they were talking about ! LOL
Was i really stoning with Jedi that time ?when everyone was playing haha .
haha i don't know but i miss the days even if i was just a stone in primary school !
haha i wanna go back SAPS again ... and not be a stone there hahahah .
then we went home at about 10pm ...
haha
miss you guys ...
when can we meet up again ? haiz everyone's busy with schoolwork , O levels and what not haiz ... haha in the blink of an eye we're all 16 ! 10 years since primary one ...
Haha SAPS forever and always yo !

ive lost it :(

2012-01-18T07:30:00.000-08:00

I lost the rescue keychain from nat comp 2010 :'(
When i wasnt at home she threw my old spoilt bag away along with it:'(
Maybe its my fault for not looking after it well enough but she just threw it away

That object means alot to me
mean alot alot alot to me , my sjab life
Now its fucking gone
Buying a new one wont buy back the memories
And i think the keychain isnt the only thing i lost since 2012
Ive lost other things too
i think i cried
fuck everything
i fucking hate myself chua ze ping should fuck off from everyone's life

I don't know why but it just hurts

2012-01-16T01:30:00.000-08:00

Enough of all this I'll disappear
There's no one I can really talk to
No one understands :(
I fucking hate myself now
:'
...

why :(

2012-01-14T05:43:00.000-08:00

now i feel kinda bad , i felt like crying . this feeling sucks :( hais
是不是我做错了什么？
why:(
I hope you don't hate me :(
the lonliness grows with each misunderstanding
I hope i'm just thinking too much
haiz :(
i hate myself now

i hope u all dun judge what i say here :(

14/1/11 ... CIP !

2012-01-14T05:37:00.000-08:00

blog about CIP ba
well , went meet with everyone in the morning and went over there to set up
meanwhile played here and there
and "ping pong " with kenneth ,lol
after setting up our stalls (Hairspray , the pin game and the angry bird game ) we finally went MOS burger eat ...
then came back and the carnival started
busy ...
especially our game stall ...
dunno why alot of ppl queue and play leh
this angry bird game really popular
stack up 20 cans and use angry bird topple the tower one
cause got attractive prizes LOL oreo , crayon , soft toy etc
we keep giving out prizes that prizes are running out ... then at abt 4pm no more prize le ...
seriosuly alot ppl play ...
the kids are kinda cute
but quite spoilt too ...
kv pissed with the kids ... lol
there's this epic moment when Kayvin asked the kid what must he say after he give the kid oreo or sth , the kid said " ANGRY BIRD' . LOL no manners but epic win ... ...

and then came performances , the year 2 squad with their 财神到，year 3 squad with their cartoon song medley sia haha got thomas n friends also ... then Zhuchin and Xinyi sing price tag n love story ...

also i sprayed my hair until like bright orange ... washed it off ... should i dye my hair this year december holidays ??

and then the thing ended ,and we clear up , bring back the tables and chairs we took from the RC , and then pack up everything ...
then got group photo too ...

well , this CIP was similar to last year one but more fun ^^ and there's no superman like last year ...
well ... haha good job everyone rvsj its everyone's effort that it's a success ...

then after that went home ... shagged ...

lost

2012-01-12T08:44:00.000-08:00

...

all i can say life's been tiring . i'm tired . of many things .
but
i must be strong and carry on .
don't really feel like blogging about school life in rvhs this week ...
cause it's kinda fucked up ...
can rv be a neighbourhood sch so we won't have to be so stress all the time ?? i am a fail f up rv student ... result like shit not up to u all de standard , attititude like shit , everyday only know how to bang wall ...

and ... nowadays ah i don't know why i'm very sad emo PMS or dk what la
for no reason , or for rubbish reasons ...
:(
and ... I'm sorry :(
for all this ... i've done nothing , but somehow maybe u will be happier not seeing me around in your life ?
I hate myself .

nowadays it seems like no one understands :(

I wanna be a listening ear for people too ... i have quite big ears :X haha so feel free to talk to me :D

and I need a ear as well ... Although i won't say much ... i'll just say rubbish ^^

of all people I wanna talk to you the most ...

argh fuck everything :(
its been a while since everything felt right
since like start of this year everything like changed alot ...
i hope u don't misunderstand me
the loneliness grows with each misunderstanding :(
hais
i hope tmr and next week will be better
and there are many little things that make us smile
...so ...

Tmr is mathematics test ... I did prepare for it
but i always fuck up one keep fail
haiz ...
and CCA in the afternoon
must really treasure it , time really flies .
half a year left before stepping down from st john ...
haiz ...
everything comes to an end ...
nothing lasts forever ...
oh and Saturday got CIP ...
I think it's gonna be quite fun sia ... haha same thing at the Pioneer RC ... the one that I wore a superman suit last year ...
this year got more stuff ^^

ok , should sleep soon tmr got maths test ...
everyone lets clear it and enjoy the weekend fuck yeah

haix

Hais ...

2012-01-08T06:36:00.000-08:00

gonna blog about my first week of school ...
starts on 3 January
ok 3 Jan , and I wore a new uniform to school
look kinda awkward
and when i step into rv i realised nobody taper pants like me
except for a few
so very easy get caught
thats why i decided wear loose pants to school ... most of the time ^^
everyone look so different in senior uniform
...
well lessons were ... ok la
i left for public duty for y5 inititation with Nigel , Songann and Keying
...
well no injuries ...
then the first day we stay back in school to prepare for CCA open house ...
well in SJAB room cutting flyers and doing the decoration ,etc.
then later practice with Kayvin Kenneth and Songann the TOC that comes after the first aid case done by Xingyun's team ...
the casualty was Nigel ... poor thing lol we repeated again and again ...
then practice until very late over and over again
cause need to be seh on open house :D
Zai max hahah got things like run with stretcher , slide in stretcher etc but not done on actual day lor ...
wah first day already super shag le :(
really very tired i don't know why ...

4 Jan
its a very tiring school day ...
very tiring ...
the boring lessons ...
and UG open house carry all the stuff around and did TOC until v tired ...
but was worth it ba ...
good job 49th and 50th batch :)

5 January
more boring lessons ...
then PE ran 2.4 km ... hais my timing become 12:34 ...nice number but slow by 1 minute ... guess its time to train up but i feel so lazy ...
then pull up need train too ... cant do much ...
then after that was a 1 and a half hour break ... lol
then afternoon did public duty with Xingyun ( happy birthday :D ) , Xinyi and Angela
haha then very funny the sjab room key not with me and everyone thought it was with me ...
which cause poor Kenneth to rot in school for an hour LOL
very funny sia ...
then after that PD ... totally no injuries at all !
Then the year 1s got mass dance
haha i forgot how dance ...
memories of being year 1 lol ...
time passes real fast ... it feels like yesterday I was still a year 2 ...
and now im wearing long pants and already like so old ...
time flies ...
then after that dinner LOL
and night trail ...
we left at 8 pm
haha time pass really fast at first i thought it would be very boring one 6 hours could be like forever
but okay la haha
quite fun thanks to the pd ppl
happy bday ! lol keep reminding xingyun she's 15 !

6 January

wah its friday like finally ugh
hais .....
everyday in sch i emo like shit
...
seriously very shag from everything
its making me tired ...

though on the bright side finally see all my friends in school haha :D
4H'12

I feel so asdfghjkl tired and sad on first week of school :(
im like year 4 already :(
so stress ...
life sucks , rv life is tiring :(
im just fail :(

and when i thought i would forget you because im so busy
i become so exhausted and worn out that i'm like "If only you were here "

hais :(
just feel fucked up :(
need a ear

you .

and no one really understands :(

INY :(

2011 .

2011-12-30T21:15:00.000-08:00

2011 , what a year it has been , and could have been .

Full of ups and downs

happy sad emo fuck up busy tired happy

bittersweet memories

酸甜苦辣。

January - New year , new beginning . I'm allocated to class 3H , new class . well , at first I wasn't used to it . I barely know anyone there . But it turned out to be a kinda fun class .

The form teacher made me the class chairperson on the first day of school , because she knows me . But obviously I can't make it ... I'm a horrible student ... and I don't wanna join Student Council ... not that I don't respect SCs or detest them , I just don't want ... so I was very reluctant ... and after that was preparation for RV carnival ... it was fun ...

Then , a hectic school year begins ...

Promoted to CPL Chua Ze Ping

First Aid Competition team out too , training starts

My team

1. David

2. Me

3. Nigel

4. JiaWei

5. Suyang

SJNZD :)

trainers : Zi-Ying , Timothy , Kelvin :)

so much homework ...

and maths very difficult ... so I failed the first test ... because i'm so childish and out of frustration and anger , I scribbled " fuck " on my maths test ... and the teacher saw it ... That's why i'm not the class chair anymore ... not that I did it on purpose ... and I didn't mean to scold Ms Jane or whatever ... I'm just that upset . I'm sorry .

This is the first trouble I got into .

February

Valentine's Day - Someone confessed to me . I was surprised ... how can someone like me ? what does she see in such a fail person like me ? I didn't say yes because I didn't have that kind of feelings for her , yet I felt bad for not accepting , and we don't really say hi when we see each other , not sure if its cause it's awkward or we just don't know each other ... but I just wanna say let's be friends and not strangers anymore cause you are a nice friend ^^ I want to make it a point to say hi and talk to you when I see you in school next year :) Thank you for taking the first step to be my friend !

And my Grandmother passed away . Rest In Peace .

March

Month of Saint John . hahahaha .

Flag day ! aish sian very little $$$

nobody in orchard wan donate :(

haha I saw Pamela there too

Well ... UG camp ...

the very last one as a cadet :(

haiz ...

did I look after my juniors well enough ?

I think I'm a fail senior

I miss being a cadet ...

After that , 24 March 2011 , 2 days before FAC , childish fucked up me got into big trouble

Me and Gerald went into the school library and at the book recommendation we wrote Steven Mao , and recommend " Communist Manifesto " .

then the librarian found out and tell everyone until the principal

the librarian kaobei us before . I really couldn't stand him .

then , I ALMOST GOT EXPELLED . for that . yes , its my fault . yes , i vandalised the library . for that u wanna expel me ? and say I slander the principal ? such a term ? fine . fine . go ahead and judge me , go ahead and pretend that you know me so well , go ahead .

I don't give a fucking damn anymore .

ok .

for something like that .

well , i don't smoke , i don't steal , i don't fight . why ? I'm not a paikia , do this to me ? threaten me ? ok can .I don't fucking care about it anymore .

The reason that I want to stay in RV because of my friends , SJAB and ...

But despite being so angsty about it

I'm sorry for being so childish :(

I'm sorry for letting you all worry about me

I'm sorry :(

Won't let you all worry about me anymore .

But this incident bonded 3H in some way hahaha

thank you 3H ppl for supporting us and doing what you all could :)

really love you all <3

Then ,

First Aid Competiton , 26 March 2011

SJNZD got 2nd place

RVSJ clean sweep

good job everyone !

Good Job 48th Batch , 49th Batch , and 50th Batch !

thank you Zi-Ying and Timothy for being such nice trainers and teach us patiently , and not giving up on uwhen we really let you all down at times ... we wouldn't have come so far without you all ... thank you :)

But we could have done better ...

我宁愿有许多遗憾，也不要一次后悔。

April

National first aid competition . well ... 8th place ... and got 2nd for CPR , almost a trophy

ok i did the CPR really tyco one ...

i don't think im good at it ...

i thinkwe screwed it :(

we screwed almost everything that day :(

haiz ...

May

May 1 - SICC public duty ... I made a new friend , Ellenie from BBSS ! haha , she's the only person from another corps doing it cause her friend JingEr overslept ... then she super bored ! Worst 11 hours of her life . haha still can make fun of her being so bored and look like Yam Ah Mee on BGI haha ...

Then busy preparing for Project Kouprey OCIP !

May 22 - May 30 Project Kouprey OCIP at Les Enfants and SHCC ! It was fun and I learnt alot ...

June

well , June holidays was kind of boring , but got class bbq at Vanessa house

and

well , the year 4s stepped down from St John . and we 49th batch took over .

Promotion parade , become Year 3 platoon commander SGT Chua Ze Ping . haiz im a fail PC , can't teach things right , can't do things right :(

haiz ...

and then got neighbourhood block party

then I wore a superman suit ... so funny

then that day I met Samuel Qianhuai and had a nice long talk w them talk crap haha .

Then , July and August was pretty boring . nothing much happened .

August , NDP in RVHS . the last one that I march in the contingent ...

September

Teachers Day , visit SAPS ... I Miss SAPS a lot ...

BGI

Well , Footdrill competition , champion .

October

EOY s and last month of sch

Done pretty well for EOYs , promoted to year 4 ...

November

I <3 November haha . November was one of the best months in 2011 .

ROD 2011 :) :) 4th November Thanks it was a success !

SJAB chalet :) :) 14-16 November 2011

haha NCO theory camp ,18-20 November damn damn shag . Alpha platoon SGT , haha know Jessalyn she very funny LOL

NCO camp ,25-28 November at my primary school . Camping at my primary school ... Delta bunk was my P4 classroom :) fun fun . Alpha 2009 and Alpha 2011 rock on :D

December

Stanchart marathon , POP , FAC training .

emo like :(

yeah so that was things that happen in this year , I wrote more on the first half of the year , cause I revived my blog in October ...

Well , 2011 was what a year ... eventful .

many things happened ...

I will never forget 2011 .

Thank you friends and family for being with me through 2011 and making me smile :D

<3 you all .

2011 ,

please don't go :(

blog again

2011-12-27T02:53:00.000-08:00

well , back here again ...
19 december - Qian Huai and Samuel and Kamalina passed their "n"level and they are going sec 5 ! happy for them ^^ yayayay !
20 december - FAC training ... i damn emo that day ugh ... after cca mos burger again LOL then we the guys went to buy the toy cars for the xmas party ... haha we went kiddy palace again to decide on what to buy !
the toy cars ... Kenneth took the rubbish truck hahaha and David took the one with the dinosaur on top haha very funny then we say want to put them in shoe boxes and print the troll face and put on it to troll ppl hahaha
kinda fun
21 december
hmm , what did I do on 21st Dec ... oh , went eat with family lo ...
21 , mood was -_____________-
then 22nd
ok i did nothing
some homework
then i left house to wander
cox i was bored , so i walk walk walk ...
loner wanderer 96 . hahaha
23rd CCA
FAC training again , epic ttm ...
cox got 2 fun cases
so funny that i laugh until almost cry
hahaha ...
kenneth set de , imba XD
super funny can
then went eat , then went home early cox going malaysia
went malaysia quite sian leh ....

ok , so i spent christmas being emo . :(
its supposed to be a happy day !

I know I should'nt like you , but I do :(
Whether you feel the same way or not
I have to get over you , but I can't .
And as much as I want to be with you , I don't want to hurt you .
I will never tell you .
I am never confident any r/s lasts . they don't

on a side note after nco course this holidays I see many guys who have a crush on someone ! like ... hahaha ...

LOL omg what am I posting up there :X nvm i'm talking crap hahaha

btw 2011 is coming to an end
im getting emo
haiz
2011 holds many memories , good or bad .
i want them to happen again , good or bad , bitter or sweet .
its as if they happened just yesterday
in the blink of an eye , its all over
but i know they wont happen again

everyone changes
everything changes

2012 wont be the same anymore :(
Thankful for all my friends there for me in 2011 :)
and for making me smile :)

...

2011-12-18T04:51:00.000-08:00

thursday went KOI with QianHuai and ate Mac
i resisted the twister fries and bought corn again ...
then after that we went jp cox he look for phone case and look at phone also
then got this phone the samsung galaxy note super big one hahaha he want
quite zai the phone
then after that we walking then saw Sir Dingjun with his sec 2 ppl Enhao they all
so coincidental

tomorrow Qian Huai , Kamalina and Samuel are going to receive their N level results ... I hope they do well and get promoted to Sec 5 !

last friday went pack the SJAB room
wah sian sia i not feeling well :(
runny nose :(
ok then most of the time tearing documents hahaha
then at night got echo ppl invite me go their bbq haha
ok quite fun la
haha
then i reach home super late n kena scolded sian
then saturday ah , nothing much , stay at home .
im really quite emo these days
ughhh
and
i tell myself to stop thinking abt you , but i just cant do it . imma screwed .
:(
as 2011 is coming to an end , im getting emotional and sad .
its over . 2011 .
time just flies :(

current wishlist

2011-12-14T23:12:00.001-08:00

Promote to sec 4

Taper long pants :p

IPod / IPhone 4

A fun sch holiday

more songs to listen to :D

more clothes to wear :D

more $$$

new bag :D

~~new glasses~~

new pencil case

new earpiece

new watch

bubble tea

(St. John)

~~go FDC and win champion~~

go FAC and win champion

~~pass basic and advanced NCO course~~

~~go NFAC~~

Adult Crest

~~LCP~~

~~CPL~~

~~SGT~~

SSG

Shiny boots

Life

A good result

Go back to SAPS often

Go out with Anthonians and ex classmates

Be with my family

Be with my friends :)

A HER ♥

This holiday pass so fast haizxc .

2011-12-13T21:56:00.000-08:00

Shall blog abou this week ...

well , 8th December : went gym in the morning , and after that lunch with Jessalyn and David , after that me and Jessalyn went NTUC buy the kitkat and sweets for Alpha ... then we go walk walk ... and I ate alot LOL ...

9th : Minho's birthday ! nothing much happened ...

10th : NCO course POP '2011 !

reached SAPS at 2011 , alot of people and officers not there yet ... so wait ...

then first parade and rehearsal start

me , David , Huifen , Kamalina and Eileen were sorting the certificates and carrying the tables and chairs ...

then after that rehearsal ...

haha David sub Mdm Lihui be Parade Commander

I sub mdm Linda be GOH commander

LOL then the first rehearsal i anyhow shout "YES SIRRRRRRR"

malu ttm hahaha epicfailness

then keep epicfailing LOL

then after that i play music

then got i rehearsal keep fucking up the music then make everyone redo again and again :(

my fingers never listen to me

lunch : hahaha okok la , the usual food lor . then changed to full uniform

then after that the final rehearsal was ok

then the real thing ...

saw Kayvin and Songann first ... they come to get commissioner badge

then i saw Takwai , Shijie , Roderick and Suyang as well ... they come and watch ...

then Sihan they all came

keep suan-ing me and Sihan -______________________- .

we are just friends la . seriously .

then the actual thing ...

everything went well ^^ my finger got listen to me :)

then the stick orderlies did a good job too ^^

except I walk to the Guest of Honour like a boss and never salute LOL

cause I blur mah dk what do

malu max

LOL

then after that phototaking and presentation ...

and congratulations to everyone who pass out from NCO course !

hahaha

then after that was dinner

gave out the cards , kitkat and sweets to Alpha platoon !

then after that haha damn funny Angela and Enhao feed me LOL

then talk crap with with alot ppl , the JVS ppl they all again , then take picture LOL

then after that went to help QianHuai to carry the logistics to the carpark ...

then took a photo with Xingyun and Xinyi

haha Angela's phototaking skills

LOL

then the day passed everyone went home ... yep thats about POP ...

haha looking at the photos brings back memories

that marks the end of my 3rd nco course !

I miss being a trainee and being in the parade haha ... i think this year POP more fun than last year one , Sir Dingjun birthday kissed by Gregory again ...

as an instructor it was tiring but kinda fun !

Alpha 2011 and instructors rock on \m/

then the next day nth much

went clementi mall there w mum , dad , brother , walk walk

then Pamela saw me

i didnt see her LOL

then yesterday was FAC training again in school

did footdrill in the morning , was kinda bored

then after that first aid cases ...

then the highlight of the day , PT = soccer instead of 50 pumpings ! the SJ room got a soccer ball :D soccer with the ambulance guys was fun haha , we play until quite epic

the juniors won LOL ...

then after that eat lunch with my squad guys at Burger King

then Enhao and JiaHui saw me *quickly hide my face*

after that went kiddy palace with Kayvin and Kenneth to check out the beyblades
haha toys these days are cool ... beyblades can remote control some more ...
got the sudden urge to buy toys yesterday
especially beyblade and the thomas and friends ...
beyblade was one of my favourite toys when I was younger haha
Gundam also , when I was P4 and P5 ...
then after that went home ...

yesterday i dk why la i damn emo . sian .
ya , sometimes i wish i could be like someone else better than me ...
i dont rly like my retard face
and my f up personality
and my failness .
ya.

counting down to 2012 , 17 days left . haiz :( nooooooooooo :( not looking forward at all .

ohh before i end this post I wanna say thank you for being so nice to me and cheer me up :)

Decemberrrrrrr .

2011-12-07T05:04:00.001-08:00

Blogging again ...

after NCO : FAC training starts .

well

i must admit i'm fail at training ppl .

i forgot alot of competition stuff except footdrill and TOC ...

fuckmylife .

sian ...

feel so useless .

what have i done after taking over ?

went standard chartered marathon baggage crew with QianHuai , Pamela , Suli , Brandon , Liling they all ...

ate tze char with QH , Suli , Ruixiu , Pam and her friend

haha QH resisting food

then went to the esplanade park

then got this scene like breaking dawn

damn funny

talking about topless guys on bikes being vampires ,

skateboarders being werewolfs

LOLOL

haha then stanchart super tiring never sleep at all

so many baggage

haha

then after we reached war memorial i saw Yunda !haha he also volunteer !

then after that me and QH go lepak a while , go LAN at bugis then head to HQ to look for the people doing PD

then ate KFC and went home

super shaggggggggggggg . arrgh , slept like a pig LOL

two days ago went eat lunch with Deng Hang

half a year no see him lo

he's still about the same la

at first wan watch movie one but no movie watch , all timing very f up

so we went eat sogurt

then go his house play badminton

haha

totally owned flat by him at badminton

then we passed by Valen house again LOL

then these two days eat Mos Burger (Y)

rice burger FTW !

Hahaha

then today i went barberque with my old schoolmates from SAPS

Chrystal , Lynn , RuiXiang , Sean , Bryan ,YangZhang , Zhantze , Hanxin , Weikit , Tiffany ...

haha we didnt talk much la

but haha i miss them ...

FAC training kinda fun la

i have nice awesome juniors :)

i've been wearing long pants to school these days

don't care just wear la .

I miss November ... December cfm is emo emo emo one :(

seriously 2011 is gonna be gone

every year seems to get worse

haiz

a year closer to A levels

a year closer to going NS

fuckthisla .

quite sian now

nobody to talk to .

actually there's hardly anyone that i can talk to about many things .

one thing ,

what if what if what if i like you . ( i dun have someone i like now )

Its easy to like someone , its a little harder to fall in love , its hardest to make it last .

ya so ...

what ?

omg why am I so emo :(

I'm not emo all the time ...

just sometimes ...

i'm a happy boy .

thats sad sometimes .

and sometimes when i'm upset , u made me smile !

nco course !

2011-12-01T21:58:00.001-08:00

since i'mma back , shall blog about NCO !
k ... this camp was better than theory !
sleep alot !
and i enjoyed the times spent with alpha 2011 and the other platoon SGTs !
it was kinda fun :)
and love is in the air !
so many couples
especially SKT and CYT !
haha first day Full U
my boots super shiny
but step on mud become dull -.-
campcraft sian luh
hike was ... not much kick for me ...
i remember the batok nature reserve toilet very far !
like wth only
LOL
haha pushing alpha ppl to continue walking at the back

then games were fun too !
delta echo foxtrot games
echo got one game is the cannot move game
yiting make me laugh then i lost
lol
then got challenge relay next day too !
haha i was the game master for the chair game
haix i didnt do it well , the ANCO ppl couldn't get what i mean :(
but challenge relay quite fun , especially the throw instructor game
haha alpha reached first !
then later that day got balloon game and water bomb
haha instructor kena bomb until drenched
yiting use that big container of water splash me T.T
why dun go splash samuel lol
then wash up and campfire
haha ok campfire was boring
got technical problem too
lol
but ok la
after that was supper
haha PS always share my green mug eat cereal
Jess eat most LOL
and i miss eating with Alpha !
haha
4th day was POP rehearsal
i got no role in the parade lol
then after dismissal i went eat macs with cheryl
cox she wan tell me sth
haha went home after that

i have to admit
i'm a quite fail instructor at course
just like how I am in corps
sorry people
and thanks for tolerating me

haha i hope there will be an Alpha outing
and SGTs KOI !
haha

at first quite high one
now emoboy96 take over liao
:(
and i miss you !

December start , i start to think this year pass really fast , and just like that :(
but this year was quite eventful
kup taiji with KOH
having gone to cambodia
train for FAC , FDC
and know new ppl , like 3H , and the NCOC ppl

but , this year's a sad one
we don't enjoy life like 15 year olds
somehow we have been controlled by stuff like studies
and got obsessed over it
so stress :(
rv life without CCA and other distraction really kinda sucks

what am I doing with my life ?am I wasting it away ?
and , I want to spend more time with my family ...
have been occupied by sch and SJ stuff
and not at home ...
i wanna spend more time with them ...

and I reallytdont look forward to Y4

fucking stress :(
i wanna go KOI with Sam , QH and Pam
and not do homework at home !
no life

and sometimes i wish i could be like you
annoying but you live your life to the fullest ...

lastly ,

i wonder
what if the person you like likes you too?

never confident that it will turn out well .

feel like going for a long , emo bus ride , i like staring out of the window !

:(

...

2011-11-16T04:38:00.001-08:00

posting again ...
well , last week ...
I spent 11/11 alone
at home
emoing
:(

12 November , going out with classmates
HuangQi , Shermeen , Yunyu and Huimin ...
hahaha fun fun
went AFA ( anime fest asia)
for whole day
haha

13 november
NCO hike reccee
haha :x

14/15 November
meeting
haha
then SJ chalet
fun fun
reached chalet at 12 am
then never sleep
went mac , went beach , slam guitar
haha
watch sunrise ( abit fail la)
then next day
morning we went eat
then bowling
then cycling
haha thank you squadmates for teaching me how to cycle :D
yay :D
cycling fun :D
then amanda xinyi angela and xingyun came
teach amanda how cycle LOL funny sia haha
then after that went back chalet BBQ
haha then play play
hahaha then Nigel listen to my IPod hahaha we got similar music taste haha cool
Click 5 rock on :D
haha fun with Nigel's DSLR too
coool .

then after that I went up the room to
year 2 and 4s playing poker cards
fun hahaha
big piranha
spotted angelfish
anglerfish
jellyfish
barnacle
etc , Hahahaha fun
then they went down play , i go BBQ
then I went up again
go up to rest
got cool aircon mah
talk to Xingyun and Xinyi about random stuffs LOL
then went inside cupboard
no i'm not emoing
maybe abit la but nope hahaha
then Kayvin come and ask where am I
they said under the bed
he believe and checked . LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

hahahaha ok la
hahahaha

then after BBQing
midnight KBOX
LOLOLOL fun

then next day wake up , eat then went home ..............
...............
...............

:(

go home jiu mood become sad le .
don't get me wrong , its not my home that made me sad
its just me being ...
i dunno
stupid me , why always so sad
after having fun also sad .

at the end of the day i'm still all alone
need someone whom I can open my heart to
a ear to listen to what I really feel .
needyounow.

and ... NCO course in like 30 hours
i'm still not ready yet :(
i havent even pack
I wanna be a good PS but
i dunno what to do :(
just like in school
I'm lost .
i'm such a failure.
why can't I be like someone else more capable
nvm i will work hard

and cfm got ppl don't like me as their PS one :(
aaargh .
:(

why ... what did I do
nvm , I will fuck off
kthxbai .

tired of being all alone
staring and stoning at home
this emptiness and worthlessness
what am I doing with my life .
I just wanna be happy for a while .
with ...
you ?

omg why am I thinking about you .

hope for the best for NCO course 2011
hope Alpha will be an awesome platoon

Lost :(

2011-11-08T19:04:00.000-08:00

k , past week was fun , spending time with squadmates ...

3rd November , went civil defence course , the instructor super funny can

spent half the time there laughing like mad

LOL

after the course squadmates and me went to Lot One supermarket to buy food for ROD steamboat

then went david house put the food

haha tiring day but fun

4th November , ROD :) it was very very very very fun :D

thank you 48th batch

and thank you for making it a success <3

makes me think about it , that next year it will be rvsj 49th batch ROD :(

time flies :(

3 years of st john passed

half a year left :(

will miss the times spent together , good or bad

will feel the sense of 舍不得 ...

hais

i'm old already :(

5th November , NCO course meeting

wake up and eat breakfast with QianHuai , Samuel and Huifen
LOL went Samuel house to knock door and wake him up

ate KFC then went ncoc meeting ...

then after meeting ate with david and ZC

then go home and emo :(

then at night went eat with family

and go WCP walk walk

then emo and emo :(

6th November

slack at home , then went airport fetch aunt

before that went bugis and bought 2 bags ...

7th November

squad meeting in the morning hahaha

then went IMM eat mos burger , because its Hari Raya Haji

OK NOT FUNNY LOL

hahaha eat eat talk talk laugh laugh

haha then went daiso a while before going home

go home do powerpoint slides

8th November

CCA

then went eat lunch with my squad guys . MOS BURGER AGAIN LOLOL

Nigel and his ketchup fetish LOL damn funny

hahahahahhahaha .

then went home ...

nowadays that exams are over

i emo alot :( think too much :(

so empty my life

wasted so much time being sad

hais

time flies too fast before i know it

miss those days alot alot alot , life seems to get sadder and sadder

lonely, lost , empty , lifeless

what am I doing with my life

super not looking forward to year 4 :(

i'm afraid :(

need that reassurance from you , telling me that everything is going to be alright .

please don't cry alone .

I wanna be there for you .

...

2011-11-05T10:30:00.000-07:00

ROD was fun

damn fun :)

thank you for making it a success , yes you ♥
but also damn emo :(
haixxx
next year will be our ROD le :(
haix ... so fast ... SJAB

...

2011-11-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

well . since i'm not working ... i may be going NCO course as a platoon SGT .
what am i doing to my life
im rotting
i should find a job
but i'm so fucking lazing around .

feel so damn useless these days .
feel so lonely nowadays .
so emo
emo
emo
:(

i'm worried for next year too :(
realising that every year gets tougher
and more stressful
and no time for everything :(
when it gets tough
where are you ?

i should start doing something productive ...

wanna walk down this road with you
so it one be the same lonely road anymore

thats it ?

2011-10-29T22:46:00.000-07:00

Friday was the last day of school

last lessons with the teachers

haha one year le , thanks for tolerating my nonsense ...

then spring cleaning

3H'11 classroom now very clean , 3H'12 be grateful :D

then give out progress report

GPA 3.1 ^^

I improved :p

k . then thats it :(

end of 3H'11

i''ll miss that classroom

3H'11 my awesome new class

then

went to practice ROD dance

and did a ROD dry run

damn shagy

felt like sleeping ...

then after that , me suyang david went JP ... wanted to go QQ rice eat at first

so many ppl

then we decided to go wendy's eat the potato

then guess who we saw behind the window

we saw Aiyu

its been like so long since i last saw her LOL

haha hope u do well for O's . 2 more weeks

then went home ... so that's it for 2011 school year , a sad , stressful one but met awesome people . 2011 , got in many trouble , result like shit , everyday sad , but hey its over , and i will miss it .

then the next day ...

woke up late !!! supposed to wake up at 5.30 , my family went malaysia except me , im alone at home .... then i woke at 5.30 and fell asleep again and woke up at 7.30

then rushed out to meet Qian Huai and the Gombak Macdonald's before heading to woodlands republic polytechnic with Pamela and her friends for the Standard Chartered Marathon Volunteer briefing ... we doing baggage ...

then after the briefing we went party world vivocity to sing sing sing

for 2 hours

hahaha fun ^^

but the Korean song so limited

haha alot of songs from Jay Chou and 丁当

then chose too many songs so stop stop stop after the first part hahahaha

haha :D

then ....

dinner with enhao , wendys . enhao was sitting at where aiyu was sitting the day before LOL

then went home

The hardest part is when I feel I miss you, but I just couldn't say it to you.

I don't miss you , I miss the old you

sleeeeeep

then i wake up

starting to be sad :(

since yesterday its over le

now what

counting the days left to 2012 , sch start again

another stress and tired like fuck year

i wanna talk to you

but you would just go away

but ... forget it :(

i said i'd fuck off ...

bye .

so lonely

forever alone

can go bang wall now ...

feel so empty

what am i doing to my life :(

aaargh :( :( :(

:(

2011-10-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

yesterday ROD dance practice
moves like jagger
at first wanted to do mr simple too ...
haha
then after that eat wendys
then go KOI with QH and Pam
haha ...

today 2nd last day of sch
nurse uniform bye bye .
emo day :(
sad :(

cold , rainy , lonely , emo day

cid dunno what to choose sia
fuck la
i hate CID
waste time only :(

then last few lessons
then rain ...
then after school go jp
take bus 187 and emo
me lost in the rain .

then i passed by the Shuqun sec bus stop
saw Benedict come up
he didn't notice me ?
i emoing at the corner seat ...

thinking about some things ...

hais

listening to September by Daughtry
Septmeber was epic :(
wanna return to September again
no , not EOYs ...

i'm sorry its all my fault or whatever
i'll fuck off :(
bye .
if i fuck off it doesn't even matter

tmr last day of school
should be another emo day
i wonder how many last days of school we still have
i dun wanna graduate
i hate goodbyes
but it may be a new beginning
and real sec sch brothers will never part
they will still reunite on the same field playing and watching soccer 10 years later like now

tmr gonna be last day of school
means that Jurongville is gonna move site soon
hais
it was nice to have them as neighbours
talking over the fence
haha ...
but no more le :(

the best memories are the saddest
because you know you can never have those days again :(

i miss you

Walkathon

2011-10-23T06:42:00.000-07:00

Today was walkathon :D

but ... it was sian :( :(

hahahaha went lavender with rvsj peeps

then HQ

saw many ppl (Y)

jurongville de ppl ^^

SSSG PJH (he's getting really active lately ... 3rd SJAB event that i saw him LOL nvm la he damn cool ok )

Pamela Qianhuai and Samuel got go too !

QH and Samuel hair very nice

i wan also

but ... dye hair ma fan :/

hahaha walkathon

walk walk walk

wa so tired

so hot

haha sian la never walk together with other ppl

then can talk talk play play

Enhao brought his bubble thingy

then walkathon walk back then prize presentation

also never get prize

hahahahaha

then we went subway

eat lunch

on the way saw Issac Tong Tak Wai

Walao he keep appearing these days LOL

everything also come

come back SJAB leh

hahaha ate at subway

then

after that met enhao , jerome , jiahui at JP

hahaha walk walk a while only

then i go home

emo on mrt

emo on bus

emo everywhere

emo at home

sleep

too shag from walkathon le

tmr still need go school

gonna buy senior high uniform tml or tuesday

LOL

hais

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

it seems like everything will end that way

that's how it usually goes

from strangers to close friends to strangers

its because no one cares anymore

then next time i shouldnt too

why is it so easy

to break the trust between each other

with just one simple mistake

why can't everyone be honest in everything

i admit that i've told lies before

now i don't wanna tell lies ...

getting far away from you :(

sian

I miss SAPS :(
i miss the times we spend together

but

i think everyone will start to drift away

memories fade

then that's it

nothing lasts

whyyyyy

haha

i wanna go out with primary sch de ppl again !

at least once in a while :D

where are you when i need you the most

somebody that i can talk to about everything

i'll be there too

:(

2011-10-22T07:28:00.000-07:00

i don't know but i'm a bit sad :(

don't look forward to anything
especially 2012 ...
why 2011 pass so fast
looking back at 2011
its full of sian-ness
why
why
looking back at things like FAC , school , OCIP , FDC , etc
2011 is kinda happening actually
i'll regret if i let it pass just like that

feel so lonely these days :(
empty hear
although there are people who keep me company
but ... can't help it

last week of wearing shorts
look forward to wearing trousers
but not looking forward to going sec 4 :(
cause life just sucks :(
no life ...
everyone is stressing me out

when u stop trying anymore
the drifting
memories fade
so i'll stop too
when the person i know
becomes the person i knew

this link on facebook is so true
things always end this way

today went JP jalan jalan with En Hao
took 187 there
i think it looks like the same bus i took with QH the other day LOL
bored ~ but ate good food ^^ tried out other stuff from Shi Lin
hais why everybody dw come
haha
then i went the stadium to run
jian fei plans haha
but fail la always tempted to eat :<
tmr SJAB walkathon
hope it will be fun
but i shouldn't hope for things that might not happen :(

n ...
when times get tough
it will be easier
if that someone gives me the strength
to carry on

Why

2011-10-21T08:13:00.001-07:00

Today is Friday
Also Aiyu's birthday
Another week passed
Got back exam results
Can get promoted.

Nowadays keep emo
Took 187 on thursday again . Same bus as JunKEat ... Then take out ear piece
In my own world
Emo till my stop
Love this bus ride nowadays

I dun know why so sad these days
Feel so empty
And dun fit in
Feel like life is wasted
And I'm not looking forward to anything much
Exam results don't make me happy
Just make me more stressed

And ... I dun know :(

Today Friday got CCA ...
I got polish my boots until quite shiny
Then FAC comp selection and muster parade

Feels like everything screwed
Fail :(
I think you're disappointed

Sian :(
I dun wan this too end the same way too
I wanna do something about it .

I'm a fail senior :(

Sick of so many things
Just wanna fuck care everything
And make the great escape
With that someone
Yet to find

Really wanna return to the past .
Miss the previous years ...
2011 kinda sucks
But I've known awesome ppl in 2011 too
miss SAPS ...

I wanna think of some things to do in the holidays ...
I dun wanna waste this holiday man
I wanna go NCO course cox nothing to do
But I no more le
Instructor also can

还要多久，我才能在你身边？

hais

2011-10-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

k ... these few days gotten back result
better than expected
quite good ...

then KOH and his madness
i dont care anymore
life in RV suck
neighbourhood schools aren't that bad
ok
fuck all this

CCA , cant even teach properly
i can just bang wall ua
:(
fail :(

sian :(

took 187 bus ride today
emo ride on bus

what did i do to make you avoid me
i'm not referring to any specific person
many people are .
i'm just an asshole right
i hope to be accepted

i feel like doing things that i really wanna do
but ...
i dont know what i wanna do ...
what's something that is an interest that makes me happy ?

and ...

everything is so stress in rvhs
i just wanna live my life

i hope u can
be by my side

smile

2011-10-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

yesterday was CPR-AED course
hahaha quite ok luh
me , Songann , Kayvin , Tzekiat and Ziying one group ^^
haha

then breaking news ... SSSGT POH JIAN HE was there !!! PJH seh
hahaha he looks really cool
haha...

after course went bugis eat with Kayvin , Songann , David , Suyang , Cheryl and her 2 sisters ...
haha quite fun
had a good time chatting on the train
bugis junction is a place of memories too
after every single SJ event at HQ this year , be it Flag Day , NFAC , course , rvsj will go the same bugis food court eat ^^
i like the place :>

okay

today did nothing much
overslept...

haiz
tmr gonna get back exam results
worrying :(
i wanna get promoted ok :<
and ...
in terms of results i suck
i'm a shit student , boliao then tio taiji get scolded by teacher , but not paikia ...yet .
everything screw like fuck
get B3 other ppl get A1
sian
rv mah

hais i hope i pass everything at least C5
...

tmr got some talk again ...
can't they just let us go early
what the fuck la
waste ppl time
exam finish liao also cant play
what fuck la nbccb
oral sex course
fuck this

haix
i still feel quite low
feel like time passes so fast and i hardly feel happy :(

nowadays quite sian also
no outing ...
then spend time alone to emo ...
wanna spend time with many groups of people ...
i don't want this holiday to pass by like that ...
next year sch is gonna be horrible i think :(
loneliness
not literally lonely
but ... just feel alone
and feel so fail
i am not as good
loser
and i think i'm a selfish asshole

worry about result
i'm surrounded by people making me feel stressed
no , i don't dislike anyone
its just stress

to you i'm not important
people hardly need me
but i'll still be there

i need someone , that someone
need you

...

2011-10-14T19:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday was graduation day for those in JC2 ...

makes me think

3 years later its gonna be me (if i never retain)

so ...

no matter how suck school life is

i dun wan graduate

cox life out there is always much worse and miserable ...

i think 3 years later i will be graduating with alot of regrets ...

well ...

regret jiu regret ...

why sec sch so sian ...

can't it be more memorable

why

oh ... btw ya i know i come from rv

but i'm not much different from the rest ... i'm not in a different world

i'm just like a student from any neighbourhood sch

ok ... so ... ya . its the same

so ... not special and dun wanna be

when ppl stop talking to you

they start talking about you

true much ?? maybe ?

ya i know i suck

i'm unworthy

maybe u hate me

so just ignore me . i don't care le

i better just fuck off ... go find a hole and hide there

okay ...

sometimes just need time

to be alone

n ... i hope u dun get the wrong idea ok dun think too much

i know , if u think too much , i also don't care le .

i wont say who

haiz

nowadays so emo ... exam over now start to think too much

feel alone even though so many ppl around ...

dont ask me why alone . i dk

so sad :(

i miss primary school man , even sjab life in sec 1 and sec 2 , especially 2010

every year passes

and each year the sadness increases

why

can't each year be happier than the one before

i wanna make beyblade with country eraser again.. LOL

thats what we did in P1 ...

2 weeks more to long pants

finally

but long pants means growing up

and becoming more no life in RV

and becoming more sad

and empty

going to school like an empty shell

and long pants so hot

but ... it does look cooler .

CCA ... SJ ...

idk ...

i wish the passion would be there forever

but apparently i think i had more passion for it last year

now its just ...

idk ? sian

and i am a fail senior , ur vulgar and bad senior , everything also seem to play play

i dun think i deserve respect from juniors

all i have is two or three more stripes on my shoulder

right

i dun really care

hahaha

i wanna get more clothes

so sian wearing same few shirts

feel like buying long sleeve tshirts

where can find ah

by the way

i miss the manga artist thingy in p4 , p5 , p6

so damn cool :(

hais

i remember i got a manga version of myself , so damn chio can

Yuki Asakura

then i got long purple hair and 2 ear piercing one then wear cross earring

haha

miss it man

i still got the sketchbooks that i draw manga in ... :(

memories.

btw havent been watching anime lately

i dun know what to watch ! :<

recommend me with some really nice anime ...

i was wondering

even if i have a "her"

nothing lasts .

:(

2011-10-13T03:46:00.001-07:00

why , seems like everything ends up this way ...

Nothing lasts forever

why can't we go back to the way we were

or am I thinking too much ... Because it happens all the time ...

People will drift further apart from each other

this song so nice

时间会把我把你都变成了回忆
从拥挤变距离
没有人能够保证永远一起～

post exam

2011-10-12T06:28:00.000-07:00

post exams

marking day over

sian go back school

the long long hours again ... need get used to the routine again ...

hais ...

post exam ...

got so many mood spoiler

shall not state here

ok ...

tmr gonna be fun i hope

water soccer and futsal seh

Ok ...

haha unlike wad i say during oracy today i dont want be a nurse la ... i cant think of anything else . btw ah trainer nurse is not equal to ITE ... is Polytechnic also have pls lol ya true that rv never produce nurses la

quite cool but ... dun think i will like doing it and no one likes it either ... so mafan alr basic de home nursing

haha

i wan be big boss and earn alot $$$

hahahahaha :D

ok ...

hmm im gonna polish my boots ...

next few days

hais not that i never polish is my boots crack le :(

so if u think i no polish i got :/

ok ...

haha

i wanna get a new bag ... nice one ...

and more shirts to wear ... long sleeve tshirts are cool ...

after exams ... i wan go out everyday or sleep at home everyday ! haha ...

and i wanna jian fei

eat less run more

...

haha btw my primary school de 6-1'08 really gonna make class tee ... cool right

look forward to wearing it ...

haha 3 years have come and pass :( ( yea class tee ^^) damn fast right .

i dont have much to say

i dont know why

but nowadays just feel quite down ,

feel so empty

for no reason :(

Hais

2011-10-11T08:37:00.001-07:00

Went to Yiming's house at clementi today ,after 3 years ... his house changed alot ...Super tall Haha Tomorrow , post exam activities ... Hope they are fun ... Then no Oracy pls I scared I retain year 3 ...if I retain how ...I may transfer sch ... Or get kicked out ...But no sch wan me ...N starting over again very mafanCox I dun know anyone , and dw leave friends in RVHS ...But ...Sometimes I think maybe it's good to go to somewhere where noone knows you ... Then nobody knows how u were like in the past and what u did ... Then u can start over again cox no one judge u ...An escape from everything , no friends , no enemies ... N ... Idk why I feel so lazy after EOY exam. ... Lazy to go find a job ... Though I got things to buy ... I lazy to work ....See how uh ... Work ahh ....But for the $$$ ... May work ... But I wan sleep lolI miss cadet life CCA starting again ...somethings I dw say here :xOk ... Hais feel so sian and sad ...The days feel like years when I'm alone .Ok ...This post abit boliaoLol ...

Hais

2011-10-11T08:17:00.000-07:00

10 , 10 .

2011-10-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

End of end of year exams , well so ?

well , i practically fucked my way through CID . anyhow write , trust me , is anyhow .

wrote things like "our group sit down eat cereal , and discuss then use the Apple IPhone invented by the late Steve Jobs to do research , use laptop and open http ://www.google.com and use mouse to click " ALL FUCKING RUBBISH LIKE MACHIAM FUCKSHIT only cox i really dk how write ...

hope the teacher who mark dun kill me

ok , then maths , disaster , i dk how do the first 2 questions , trigo was ok though . Im gonna be last in class for math again :(

i am such a fucking failure :(

i hope i can promote

after then went Harbourfront / Vivo City with Jerome , Eileen , Enhao , David and JiaHui

eat KFC

then walk walk

then Jerome , Eileen and JiaHui went home like LOL ._.

Enhao call then they cant hear also :/

LOL

then me , croc and kari went Haw Par Villa

haha interesting but abit creepy haha :D

ok then went jp to take bus

bus 187

hop on bus , take out iPod , get into my own world and emo all the way

haha

i wanna go out again

go that park again play

so crazy so fun

sometimes i wan to switch on my paranoid xiang tai duo mode and assume everyone hates me one way or another

tmr going find Yi Ming

long lost brother haha i know so many of his classmates haha :D

haha

miss the times playing at his house

so many years already

time flies

everybody change

really want to go back to those times again

25 more days to tentative NCO course date sian no more course le

imissyou.

current wishlist :p

2011-10-06T02:43:00.000-07:00

Promote to sec 4

Taper long pants :p

IPod / IPhone 4

A fun sch holiday

more songs to listen to :D

more clothes to wear :D

more $$$

new bag :D

~~new glasses~~

new pencil case

new earpiece

new watch

bubble tea

(St. John)

~~go FDC and win champion~~

go FAC and win champion

~~pass basic and advanced NCO course~~

~~go NFAC~~

Adult Crest

~~LCP~~

~~CPL~~

~~SGT~~

SSG

Shiny boots

Life

A good result

Go back to SAPS often

Go out with Anthonians and ex classmates

Be with my family

Be with my friends :)

A HER ♥

back

2011-10-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

yeah . i said i'll be back .

yeah . now posting . after 6 months ...

i wont post any rubbish about rv le

cox i fuck care already .

k , an emo 6 months , so sian :(

everyday worry so much for everything ... so lonely .

exam period

i dun wanna fuck up man :(

i wanna go sec 4

wear long pants taper taper taper :D

k , made new , some unexpected friends in this 6 months ...

seniors and juniors ...

haha had a nice talk with Qian Huai and Samuel someday in June cox i was really bored that day :) hahahah .

and ...

teacher's day 2011 ,

went back to my pri sch

everyone wear long pants liao except me , so sad :( nvm next year i will still go back and look like everyone else :p

everyone changed so much :(

really really miss the days i had in SAPS . i wanna go back there again .

i should really have enjoyed it more :(

now regret :(

footdrill competition 2011 , my last competition in SJAB ... :(

got champion for ambulance category ...

haha will miss the days training ....

especially 2010 ...

after FDC went westmall with QH and Sam ... then they watch movie ...

then Yiting call me go jp , and play like siao with Enhao , Jiahui , Jerome , David , Eileen , Dion and some other JVSS people at bangalah park ... haha i miss playing with fire at Yi Ming's house :(

HAHAH . it was fun :(

but ... now exam :(

exam so fucking stress ...

rv ppl so obsessed and hiong

cant breathe

life sucks .

I hope to get 3 H class tee soon : D

3HAHAHA 1 YEAR LE !